Sickness and Death

My pastor tells me I have a death wish. It seems to stem from when I was 5 and my older brother died. I wished I was dead too, so we could stay together. I've been battling this self-curse and pulling myself out of it with the help of the Holy Spirit. At the same time however, I am surrounded by much sickness and death. Without the blood of Jesus, all would be lost.

My grandfather is going blind and is now having trouble breathing. My Grandmother is beside herself with worry and when he goes she won't be far behind, she can't live without him. Meanwhile, my other grandmother is on oxygen and keeps having minor heart problems and mini-strokes.

I just recently learned that a friend has stage IV lung cancer. He has been in and out of the ER and various doctors offices for years and he just got shoved around because he was uninsured. They told him there was nothing wrong with him and that it was all in his head. Now, he has only a few months to live.

And let's not talk about tornados, tsunamis, hurricanes, earthquakes and wars.

Some say the world as we know it will end in 2012. Is that when armageddon will happen? I don't know.

What I do know is that because Christ died for my sins and because the Lord gave me the gift of his Son and the Holy Spirit dwells within me that I will not perish. I will live forever in Glory. Life is good.

Fundraising

I found a new way to raise money for the church and the teen center. Goodsearch.com. They donate pennies every time you search on their site, but you have to designate who you want the money to go to.