I can't do it...

Apparently my Lyme disease had corrupted my brain power more than I realized. I am really struggling in seminary. I have always been a good student. I've been able to tell when I do well on an assignment and when I don't. Not anymore. I thought I did OK on a paper... I got a C. I thought I aced a test (a little map quiz that I had studied for for 3 weeks) and I got an A, but I didn't do as well as a certain someone I'm married to who crammed the night before.

If I can't do well after 3 weeks of studying, how am I supposed to survive mid-terms and finals!!??!!!


I hate this!

I feel so stupid!

I am such a failure, once again.

Wesley

I have officially been a seminary student for one full week now. How's it going? I'm not sure. So far I am surviving. As much as I worry about being able to balance 15 credits, a 2-4 hour total commute 4 days a week and of course being a mommy I know that it will all be OK. God is so present here. I am finding different ways to manage my time. It's difficult to balance family time with homework, but it's one of those cases where the more you need to do the more you appreciate all that you do.

I am called into a stronger relationship not only with the One, but with my family and my fellow students. I am not only learning the nuts and bolts of the Bible, church history and other subjects, I am learning more about who God is for me... and how I rely (or don't rely) on Christ.

I am stressed to be sure... but I am also greatly blessed.