So, I've been living in Maryland for almost 2 weeks now. Heath preaches his first sermon tomorrow. He's on his way to settling in with his new role as student pastor. I think he really likes it.
Jeff loves the new house and is looking forward to starting a new school.
I'm feeling out of place and rather alone. I'm disconnected from everyone. I'm still unfamiliar with the area and especially with the people. It's hard to move from a place where you know hundreds of people and have family close by to a place where you know absolutely no one and the only family "close by" is a cousin you haven't really been close to since you were a kid.
I'm hoping that when school starts I'll find some friends. I really don't feel like I'm going to fit in at Trinity... they are much more conservative (on average) than I am. It's also the whitest congregation I've seen in a long time. Don't get me wrong... Vermont wasn't exactly ultra-diverse... but at least we had more than 1 black person out of 1000! The church is traditional and the music is old. I really don't think I'll fit in here. And, as a pastor's wife, I'm expected to. It's assumed that I'll be in church every Sunday and be involved in some activities there.
I went to a ladies Bible study the other day. I was more than 10 years younger than the "baby" in the group... they're nice women, but they are all at a very different stage of life than I am.
I'm hoping that I find someone to connect with. I'm never good at making friends anyway, and when it seems everyone knows your business and watches everything you do it makes you even more cautious to show who you really are.
On the plus side, the parsonage is awesome, the area is beautiful and I can't complain about the weather (especially with the blessing of air conditioning).
I just hope (and pray) that I'll feel more at home sooner rather than later. 4 years is a long time to feel completely out of place.
